poem- you are

 You are...

I WAS BORN FOR THIS
this dream this thing inside of me to be birthed
with every ughhhhhh, oh my gosh, and come on!
something happens something grows
something happens something grows EVERY single time.
it is impossible for me to dream and it not come true
that thing you say is so contrayer to all reason
''that God you dream of is just to big''
everytime something grows.

often people say what do you want to be...
but it's more like look at who i have become
I would push, but why it is so natural
so simple, ease has become my middle name, (He has finished everything)
passion urupts almost to the point it looks like i might SELF frickin distruct
like an atomic bomb or a bushel of bannanas and donkey kong
i was made to explode with JOY and hope
i was made to be extreme to not be intimadated by the extraordinary.
Because thats what i am
can i make it yes i can
No i can 
you can, we can. 
Hold my hand and dont let go, lets take it fast lets take it slow, fast and slow again.
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It just happens to be my very best friend is invisible and lives inside of me at once.


when i get around you it all makes sense
you are the chlorophyl in my leaves 
you are the breeze whispering into my tree
saying ''it's your time to bloom''
next to you I've taken a stand, you have intertwined your fine fierce roots in mine
together here we change the world
representing love into every hug, smile, word, and thought
knowing that all I have to do is wake up and you will show up.

Serenating me with the finest love songs of promise and security
leaving me with an expectancy of your goodness to continually be displayed.

You are the one
we are one
you dance in my belly.

It's here I truely cherish the confidence
that only comes from your presence.
And the awe and mystery of knowing the depths of you.

your words are a perfect sonnet froclicing through
my ears penetrating the deepest places in my imagination

washing through and through

spinning,  your cleansing everything

You are the original programer

rewiring my head showing me a world I never dreamed possible;

and that world has become a reality right before my very own eyes,

I did not contain the ability to imagine this,

even in my artistic mind that continually is inventing ideas, concepts, and new paterns

I thought I was highly creative until I met you,

I've now realized you are my source, and you don't mind sharing.

everything is swirling world of color world of life,

who needs rehab?

your love is my drug

my solo addiction

you are my delight

encompising all of my body

the entirety of all I am, have been, and will become

you have the ability to touch all at once

and bring into completion with just one word.

but i think you perfer kisses over words

and that I was born to tell the world.

A man, a God, a lover lives inside of me and

your kisses create planets, nebulas, and supernovas

i find myself getting sucked into your black hole of love

chosing to forfeit all of control. that is easy when drunk with love,

lying in the green pasture of unconditional acceptance

as you are creating a whole new galaxy for me to explore.

you are the most captivating first impression i have ever had

looking in your eyes is the way i learn theology and discover my love for gelotology

you invent and represent a way,

that never gets old, musty, or exausting it stays so fresh and ever so inviting

and i say yes yes yes to who you are.

to the dreams you have placed inside of me

yes to discovering infinite you more and more everyday of my life

yes to the eyes that displace lies, darkness, infirmity, fear

your eyes call me out of solitude as you put me before you.

your laughter is like a hoedown

taking over my farm

intoxicating me with the most profound peace and security

you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Crazy Good NEWS!!!!!

"If this is Christianity this should be on the news!"-A man who regave his life to God and was overwhelmed with how good the Good News really was.

I just got back from a ministry trip with some friends Jason Chin, Ben Church, Paul Rapley, and Asaph Cueto. Baby it was bangin'! We started off in San Fran staying at an amazing house and going to a Benny Hinn Confrence. We decided to pray for people who were waiting in line. So we started calling out words of knowledge and loving on people. Jesus healed 50+ people in line such as a woman who had intense non stop back and shoulder tension at a level 8 from an acident 19 years ago, all gone!! A few people in line gave their lives to Jesus and were filled with joy! It was fun activating the people in line to pray for each other. They were rocked some of them had never seen a miracle in their life and were growing out legs and seeing pain leave bodies. It was fun!! The people we stayed with were so amazingly generous they had an awesome resturant called Val's Burger. They specialize in shakes, steaks, and burgers and hooked us up with some amazing free meals. Check it out next time your in San Fran it is EPIC and the owners are absolutely precious!

Next we drove down near Riverside Ca. it's about an 11 hour drive from Redding. We went to a hispanic youth group to hold a firestorm. (During these weekends, teams activate others in praying for the sick, giving words of knowledge for healing, doing prophetic art and participating in treasure hunting.) There was about 120 people probably there. It was so much fun!! The young people were so excited and incredibly hungry for God. We released words of knowledge at first and had the kids who didn't stand up for those ailments release their shadows over the other kids body parts and see them get healed.  Through that their was around 40+ healings without even praying. A boy who's whole body was sore from running and working out and who's knee was messed up for more than a week was healed without him even saying anything. Which was cool because he admitted he was skeptical and didn't think God would heal someone. We lead the kids in a soaking encounter in God's presence; Some smelt flowers, others saw visions of Jesus's eyess, one girl had some inner healing as the father held her she said she never felt anything like that, some felt loved, some experienced heat or winds, power or electricity go through their bodies. They encountered God in many new ways. As you read this hold out your hands palm up and feel God's heavy presence. WOW!

Many of these kids had never had those type of encounters with God, prophecied, or prayed for the sick. We had a little bit of training. Then we took them on a treasure hunt all 120 of them into their city to love on people. My team was so full of joy, compassion, and anticipation. We saw God touch many people at the mall it was so fun to see my team get excited and just go for it. They saw God take pain out of hips, arms, shoulders, the list goes on. They were so excited by how easy it was to see God show up. Another team met a woman with polo who was in a wheelchair she couldn't walk and had polo since she was 2. I believe this woman was in her 50s. Her back pain was in a constant 10 level pain, her left leg was paralysed and she didn't have any feeling in it. They prayed all the pain left her back AND she had feeling in the bottom of her foot again. They then noticed one of her legs was shorter than the other. They grew out her leg and asked her if she wanted to try and stand. Before they met her she couldn't do that. Well she got up with the assistance of the youth and was able to take some steps with help and move her foot 12''! Which she couldn't do before. COME ON JESUS!!!!! So good! Also one of the boys jokingly and mockingly put his hand on another youth's shoulder and said deltoid be healed in Jesus name. The other boy said, "Hey I have a problum with my deltoid!" He tested it out and it was completely healed!COMPLETELY HEALED ON ACCIDENT! HA! Healing is way easier than we think. Bam! All of these youth were amazing! They took so much risk! Sometimes we instantly see God show up and sometimes we don't but we celebrate love and risk! and we know God is good and it is impossible for us to pray and nothing happen. :D The pastor and his family blessed us so much I felt so at home. It was absolutely insane!

The next day we went to a Church called Good News. It was the most drunken whacked out church I have ever been to. Our team spoke out of a mega phone. I rapped over the pastor in front of the congregation that was a lot of fun! I've never done that before! But when your drunk, you'll do anything. Risk is easy when your drunk. There we saw people shadow healed as well and had a great drunken family time. During that service was when that guy came up to us and said "if this is Christianity this should be on the news." He was so shocked at how joyful Christians were. The Good News is scandaleously good!! BAM Shocka Laka. Drink in the goodness of God. He loves you a lot.

Also on this trip I had some crazy encounters and dreams...take it! <3

"The Jesus who condemns you is not the right one!" :))

What is it like for women to live, love, and lead in their full potential? your thoughts.

                                  Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do.
                          Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.

                                                         ~ Ella Fitzgerald ~


Have you ever felt like you were in a season in your life where everything in your life had potential?
I feel like I wake up every morning to this awareness that anything could happen.
That nothing is impossible.
I BELIEVE that is a fire that has been so deeply been burned on my heart for life.
That my dreams could be tasted today.
I am so thankful for the many people who I truely feel believe in me.
Right now, today, where I am at. The list goes on and on.

So today I went to this tea party,
Held by two amazing friends of mine where they shared their journeys of what it is like to be empowered as a woman. They shared their process. It was amazing. I am still processing.
During this time I was reminded how in my life I have felt limited by my gender in leadership ect. sometimes I have things burning in my heart to say something and I look around the room and notice I am the only woman present and or sharing. As of the past 6 months or so I have only noticed this, and for the most part not allowed this to hold me back because it shouldn't hold women back.
We are just as powerful as men. Different but never the less just as powerful.

I don't really have a message to share but just wanted to open this up as a discussion.
What do you think it looks like for a woman to lead, live, and love in her full potential? I know many of us our on a journey into this subject but what are your thoughts?

<3 Thanks

Worship paintings (from this week)

These three paintings I painted on stage during worship at the Hem of His Garment Healing Conference in Powell Ohio. The first one releases a depth into God's presence to explore new places in His love. to drown in God's goodness and be captivated with who He is. The firey swirls release us to walk in our idenity as an open heaven. The second is an invitation to to grown and be planted in His presence. ect. The third was released through childlike worship I painted it with a 7 year old named Kate. YAY!! Please excuse photo quality these are off my camera phone :/

God loves conferences, airplanes, and the mall.

"There is NOTHING more dangerous than a happy Christian because there is no dangerous place when you show up."-Joaquin Evans

This week I went on a ministry trip with Joaquin and Chris Gore and many other amazing revivalists that changed my life forever. To a Hem of His Garment Healing Conference in Ohio my home state. UGHHHHH!! So many beautiful people God is doing INCREDIBLE things in OHIO!!This trip changed my life!! I had some crazy encounters in His presence this week (I wont get into that now though)  Here are some of the things God did this week to display His love:

Tail bones healed
new foot arches
headaches gone
40 years of car accident chronic pain gone
all symptoms of post polio gone (numbness, pain)
TMJ healed
constant blurred vision gone
eyesight floaters disappeared
ruptured discs healed
at least 6 deaf ears opening
woman without spit for 27 years now producing salva
allergies healed
tooth ache gone
toe pain gone
systs disolving from side
sense of smell coming back to around 7 people
diviated septums healed
MS healed
12 years back pain gone
legs grown out
tension leaving necks

On our flight back me and my new friend Ben were sitting together and we were starting to get to know the man sitting next to us his name was Alan. Me and Ben began to share stories of our week in Ohio with the guy sitting next to us with much joy and excitement. Stories about individuals who were touched by God we were sharing the love and joy of God. As we told them Alan was getting very excited and his eyes were getting watery. He was in awe and kept telling us to share more because he was soaking it all in he said. We then prophecied over Alan and told him he could walk in miracles just like us. Alan was shocked. As we talked to him we could see his perspective change and himself actually believe he could do it to. We prayed over him and asked him if he wanted to try to get a word of knowledge for healing over anyone in the plane and Alan went from totally not believing God could or would use him to practicing hearing God's voice in a plane.
Also one of my good friends from Toledo was at the conference and she was so moved and touched at it. that the next day she got some friends together to love on people at the mall. My friend typically doesn't see miracles of healing on a normal basis. At the mall her and her friends radically loved on people, it is all about love!! They saw a woman with a spinal injury get out of her wheel chair, a man with bad arthritis in his knees get healed, a girl with a crippled leg become straighter and all pain leave. They saw many people get touched by God's love and his thoughts towards them and a few people give their hearts to him.
God is so good. He lives inside of you and wants to get out to love the world around you. It is so easy to see God move just ask Him to highlight people to you and love on them. Smile, laugh, Take risks! BAM!