This blog is a bit different than what I usually write about :)
I am actually going to write about how I deal with disappointment.
I live in two worlds at once.
I live knowing that Jesus paid the price absolutely for all to be healed. I know it is absolutely His will and heart to heal all through us His church. While that is always my expectation that the one in front of me would receive full healing, this isn't always my experience.
It is so crazy to live in this culture where left and right we are hearing amazing testimonies about what God is doing all over the earth. I think in one week I probably hear more good news than I ever did in the fifteen years before I knew Jesus!
I celebrate those who are healed and receive any measure of healing in their bodies; I am also at the same time very aware that everyone that gets prayed for isn't healed.
You might wonder what do you do with that? How do you process that?
I have had situations in my life such as my mom dying at 42 from cancer, friend's children dying, and just this week one of my friends dying from cancer. All of these situations all obviously were hard for me and you have also probably had things like this in your life as well, These types of situations lead me to questions and a DEEP hunger to look more like Jesus. Allow me to explain the process.
How do we live on the edge of breakthrough? how do we press in for more? How do we handle when we pray for people and many many many get well and yet some die? These are questions I have had to ask myself and the Lord lately.
1. Let's say we expect something to happen and it doesn't the way we think it should, whether it be healing finances ect. When someone isn't healed His nature is never on trial. He still purchaced healing and salvation for all. We first and foremost have a choice to make.. To believe that God is good, no matter what. That it is ALWAYS His heart to redeem His people from all works of the devil, death, sickness, sin, poverty, whatever. When we choose to believe He is who He says He is it puts us in a position to be victorious when we are processing our pain.
2. Be honest with God- process how you feel. Be humble and real with God He can handle it. However as you are real with Him, be honoring towards Him, keeping in mind that He is a good Father! Allow Him to come into your heart and love on any places of pain, discouragement, disappointment, or fear. Choose to not be angry at God, because that leads to disappointment and when we are disappointed with God that leads to a skewed perception of Him and who He truly is and that left untreated grows into unbelief. "Hope deferred makes the heart sick." And unbelief leads us into powerlessness... and powerlessness just breeds disappointment.
3. When we choose to believe He is good.To choose to not be disappointed in God. We next have another choice to make to not give up. To get in the secret place and cry out for more. Our realization that we don't currently measure up to the life of Jesus was meant to lead us to hunger for more and ultimately to looking like Jesus in every area of our lives and bringing heaven to earth in every sphere of society. Our realization that we must have more should lead us to dreaming, imagining, and stepping out, it was never meant to cause us to feel inadequate or powerless!!
Hunger always leads us to relationship and relationship with Him will always lead us to more love, power, and confidence in Him. This very thing should actually lead us to more of His power flowing through our lives and into the world around us!
Keep Dreaming!
The kingdom of the world has become the kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ; and He will reign forever and ever.”
