Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Favorite Song...
This song is like the song of my life..
I find myself singing the chorus 24/7..
Especially when I get a free second at work..
"I want to know You
Let Your Spirit overwhelm me
Let Your Presence overtake my heart" <3
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Jesus heals cancer because He is that GOOD!!!!
It is impossible to exagerate God's Goodness! He is amazing!
On Thursday a team of first years, another second year and I always go out to visit sick people, love on them, and pray for them. We always pray expecting that today is the day of complete healing and restoration in the person we are withs life. We ask God to show us how He sees them and we pray from the place of God's amazing love and compassion for that person. We have an unshakable conviction that it is always in God's will to heal and that it is His pleasure and we don't have to beg Him to do anything so this time is usually full of prophetic words, listening to stories, and laughter. Knowing we are partnering with heaven and that the person is going to be set free.
This Thursday we met this wonderful and absolutely precious woman named Susanne she captivated us with her deep eyes, simplicity, and HUGE heart. She told us last Monday she flew into Redding from Australia being her last hope. Her cancer was at a stage four and spread all the way throughout many parts of her body ovaries, liver, kidneys, bone. She came to Redding as a last resort saying she knew she would go home well or in a body bag. We told her TODAY WAS HER DAY to be completely healed!
So we prophecied over her future, released God's presence, washed her feet, and loved on her. It was a great time of getting to know her and seeing God move. Some pain left her right side, she felt some strength come back into her body, and pain leave her left wrist. She also felt an enormous amount of peace where the cancer was. She told us when she got healed she would go skiing in the States with her son who was here. I left believing all her breakthrough would continue and I felt within that week she would be looking into returning to Australia. Two days afterwords I saw Mama Beni's facebook status said, "Highlight of my day talking to woman who was healed of cancer, she is now going skiing with her son." As I read this I said to myself "I think this is her!!" I emailed Beni a description of her and yes it was Susanne!!! COME ON Jesus!
God is so good and in LOVE with people! It is always His will and heart to see our lives completely restored. If you need a miracle Jesus is releasing it right now, take it :) Go after the impossible, because nothing is impossible with God.
LOVE YOU!
On Thursday a team of first years, another second year and I always go out to visit sick people, love on them, and pray for them. We always pray expecting that today is the day of complete healing and restoration in the person we are withs life. We ask God to show us how He sees them and we pray from the place of God's amazing love and compassion for that person. We have an unshakable conviction that it is always in God's will to heal and that it is His pleasure and we don't have to beg Him to do anything so this time is usually full of prophetic words, listening to stories, and laughter. Knowing we are partnering with heaven and that the person is going to be set free.
This Thursday we met this wonderful and absolutely precious woman named Susanne she captivated us with her deep eyes, simplicity, and HUGE heart. She told us last Monday she flew into Redding from Australia being her last hope. Her cancer was at a stage four and spread all the way throughout many parts of her body ovaries, liver, kidneys, bone. She came to Redding as a last resort saying she knew she would go home well or in a body bag. We told her TODAY WAS HER DAY to be completely healed!
So we prophecied over her future, released God's presence, washed her feet, and loved on her. It was a great time of getting to know her and seeing God move. Some pain left her right side, she felt some strength come back into her body, and pain leave her left wrist. She also felt an enormous amount of peace where the cancer was. She told us when she got healed she would go skiing in the States with her son who was here. I left believing all her breakthrough would continue and I felt within that week she would be looking into returning to Australia. Two days afterwords I saw Mama Beni's facebook status said, "Highlight of my day talking to woman who was healed of cancer, she is now going skiing with her son." As I read this I said to myself "I think this is her!!" I emailed Beni a description of her and yes it was Susanne!!! COME ON Jesus!
God is so good and in LOVE with people! It is always His will and heart to see our lives completely restored. If you need a miracle Jesus is releasing it right now, take it :) Go after the impossible, because nothing is impossible with God.
LOVE YOU!
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I am writing again here is just a taste a piece of a spoken word.
I often find you,
Serenading me with the finest love songs of promise and security
leaving me with an expectancy for all
my dreams to come true
And i know your hope
That I have
So eagerly hoped in
Could never DISAPPOINT me.
YOU ARE EXCEDINGLY BEYOND
All my vivid childish imaginations
HERE I am safe wrapped in your arms, God.
complete.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Keeping it real My Journey of Becoming "Normal"
So lately I have enjoyed eating healthier a diet full of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and grace and some how that has brought about some thoughts on my past I just wanted to share :))
I have discovered that there is something very liberating in loving ourselves, when we love ourselves we no longer perform or compare ourselves. Secure people can't get rejected because inside of them is an unshakable acceptance: that they chose to agree with long before a situation that challenged their self love arose.
So here is a little bit on my journey of becoming healthy. Growing up in the Midwest probably one of the least healthiest places in America I thought little about health, if ever. I mean wasn't that a class I was forced to take in school every few years. Everyone in my family was either on drugs, ate REALLY unhealthy, or smoked so it never was modeled to me on what it might be like to care about myself. A mentality of what happens happens permeated our culture. I never thought about consequences. Most of the people in my life were very careless of their words and from a very young age I felt "fat, ugly, and unwanted." I remember these emotions determining and being my identity from the beginning of elementary school. I remember thinking no one could or would ever love me and I remember intentionally doing things to isolate myself. I think a lot of people say things about more negative sub cultures things like "they are only doing this or that for attention." For me I never believe that was the case I think it was a desperation to not have an opportunity to be loved because I really didn't want to discover my inadequacies deeper. I think drugs and bulimia/anorexia was my way of disqualifying myself.
Growing up I remember being very shy, insecure, fearful, and seldom feeling loved. Hating my body and mutilating it, whether that meant burning my flesh, taking pills, drugs, starving myself, ect. From the ages of 9-16 I remember purging at least 6 days a week and becoming so freaked out with the feeling of food in my belly. So freaked out even after I got saved just crying because I couldn't handle the feeling of food.
I think even in the deepest darkest places in my life I have always wanted hope even when I truly felt there was no way out. In this season I am celebrating four years after my decision to ditch eating disorders. It was a long battle a hard one. Two or three times between then and a year and half ago I seriously thought of going into rehab for eating disorders. Even in places of feeling loved I had a hard time feeling like I had a voice in this area of my life.
I remember being in deep encounters with God and Him pouring His love all over me and telling me how beautiful I was and how He made me and still thinking "God it's cool you feel that way but I just can't." remember God telling me how loved, wanted, special, valuable, gifted, lovely I was and writing down what He said about me and looking in the mirror saying it over myself and crying, Crying not in a good way. Crying in a this is SO HARD way. This hurts so bad way.. weeks went by and I remember in January 2008 catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror and just thinking wow i am so beautiful. I AM BEAUTIFUL.. I really can do this!! Something happened inside of me I didn't even notice. I had begun to actually start to love myself through agreeing with how God saw me. It was crazy. Confidence and security become a part of my life through who God said I was. It was so good, it was like what I believed finally agreed with what I did. I hadn't been participating in any ED stuff but finally my heart loved me!! I now look in the mirror and feel beautiful, secure loved and joyful because I see the father made me and He calls it GOOD! hahaha!!
We can't be ashamed or embarrassed to be confident to be proud of who God has made us to be. That He has made us to be wonderful and lovely!
There is something about just being around God in His presence all fears and insecurities melt off and we receive His mind and thoughts towards ourselves and the world our perspectives are shifted. It truely is indiscribible and only experience can truly do it justice. Let His love go deep experience a new level of freedom and security to be who you were made to be.
FACT
Before Bethel (a year and half ago) I consider going into rehab for bulimia and upon moving here was set free from tormenting hateful thoughts about myself
10% of college age women in America suffer from Bulimia
80% of 13 year olds have attempted to lose weight
God is so in love with you and with Him nothing is impossible.
I have discovered that there is something very liberating in loving ourselves, when we love ourselves we no longer perform or compare ourselves. Secure people can't get rejected because inside of them is an unshakable acceptance: that they chose to agree with long before a situation that challenged their self love arose.
So here is a little bit on my journey of becoming healthy. Growing up in the Midwest probably one of the least healthiest places in America I thought little about health, if ever. I mean wasn't that a class I was forced to take in school every few years. Everyone in my family was either on drugs, ate REALLY unhealthy, or smoked so it never was modeled to me on what it might be like to care about myself. A mentality of what happens happens permeated our culture. I never thought about consequences. Most of the people in my life were very careless of their words and from a very young age I felt "fat, ugly, and unwanted." I remember these emotions determining and being my identity from the beginning of elementary school. I remember thinking no one could or would ever love me and I remember intentionally doing things to isolate myself. I think a lot of people say things about more negative sub cultures things like "they are only doing this or that for attention." For me I never believe that was the case I think it was a desperation to not have an opportunity to be loved because I really didn't want to discover my inadequacies deeper. I think drugs and bulimia/anorexia was my way of disqualifying myself.
Growing up I remember being very shy, insecure, fearful, and seldom feeling loved. Hating my body and mutilating it, whether that meant burning my flesh, taking pills, drugs, starving myself, ect. From the ages of 9-16 I remember purging at least 6 days a week and becoming so freaked out with the feeling of food in my belly. So freaked out even after I got saved just crying because I couldn't handle the feeling of food.
I think even in the deepest darkest places in my life I have always wanted hope even when I truly felt there was no way out. In this season I am celebrating four years after my decision to ditch eating disorders. It was a long battle a hard one. Two or three times between then and a year and half ago I seriously thought of going into rehab for eating disorders. Even in places of feeling loved I had a hard time feeling like I had a voice in this area of my life.
I remember being in deep encounters with God and Him pouring His love all over me and telling me how beautiful I was and how He made me and still thinking "God it's cool you feel that way but I just can't." remember God telling me how loved, wanted, special, valuable, gifted, lovely I was and writing down what He said about me and looking in the mirror saying it over myself and crying, Crying not in a good way. Crying in a this is SO HARD way. This hurts so bad way.. weeks went by and I remember in January 2008 catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror and just thinking wow i am so beautiful. I AM BEAUTIFUL.. I really can do this!! Something happened inside of me I didn't even notice. I had begun to actually start to love myself through agreeing with how God saw me. It was crazy. Confidence and security become a part of my life through who God said I was. It was so good, it was like what I believed finally agreed with what I did. I hadn't been participating in any ED stuff but finally my heart loved me!! I now look in the mirror and feel beautiful, secure loved and joyful because I see the father made me and He calls it GOOD! hahaha!!
We can't be ashamed or embarrassed to be confident to be proud of who God has made us to be. That He has made us to be wonderful and lovely!
There is something about just being around God in His presence all fears and insecurities melt off and we receive His mind and thoughts towards ourselves and the world our perspectives are shifted. It truely is indiscribible and only experience can truly do it justice. Let His love go deep experience a new level of freedom and security to be who you were made to be.
FACT
Before Bethel (a year and half ago) I consider going into rehab for bulimia and upon moving here was set free from tormenting hateful thoughts about myself
10% of college age women in America suffer from Bulimia
80% of 13 year olds have attempted to lose weight
God is so in love with you and with Him nothing is impossible.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Invitation to Dream
"Everybody wants their dreams to come true, the world is BEGGING for someone to reveal dreams coming true are possible."- Danny Silk
I remember sitting on my bed at 11 years old, thinking I would be 100% okay if I never lived to be 20. And I remember a chill went through my bones as I absolutely realized I meant it. All my dreams had died at that point and I didn't any longer felt safe to express myself or how I really felt. I had forfeited my dreams for a mentality of survival, living in a world of low self esteem, extreme depression, horrible circumstances, self hatred, and irrational fears. A LOT has changed since then.. okay EVERYTHING HAS!
I find myself often dreaming and pondering what will the future look like, what can I bring, what do I offer , and HOW CAN I CHANGE THE WORLD!?
The distance between what should be and what will be is us and will we dare to dream? Or will we remain satisfied with what we have? It takes a lot of courage to dream because most dreams currently appear impossible. I really believe that nothing is impossible and that God wants to see impossibilities bow to His name through partnership with us. AND I'M GIVING MY LIFE TO THAT RIGHT THERE.. that's what I want to be known for a woman who loved God with everything and lived in a way that nothing was impossible.. what do you want to be known for?
What would you do if you knew you could not fail? Or you were ten times bolder or resources were not an issue?
THINK.. those are your dreams
Your life is meant to feed and inspire those around you.
When we dream with God it causes a dissatisfaction with a natural life and propels us into a life of purpose.
When your dreams are coming true you are a tree of life, your eyes illuminate hope. The whole world sees it because everyone is hungry to be fulfilled, to be doing what they were born for, to be doing what makes them come alive.
So I keep a list of my dreams I believe I have 170 of them and I add to them and check them off as they happen here are a few that have happened since March..
-Visit the Redwood Forest
-Paint on stage during worship (at Bethel)
-Visit LA and San Frann
-Go to Mexico
-Hug someone and they be healed (she was blind)
-Pray for people and they be healed of cancer
Some dreams of mine I have dreamed that have not happened yet, but will!
-Start a spontaneous dance party in public
-Open air preach in America (demonstrating God's love and power)
- People who are extremely starved bodies get fat and entirely nourished, miraculously
-Visit Cuba
-Travel throughout Africa
-See Africa completely redeemed the ground grow fat crops, family unit restored, creativity, ect.
-That people getting out of wheelchairs would be normal (in my life)
- Adopt beautiful and amazing kids
-That when I shop people would fall out in God's presence and encounter Him just because He lives inside of me.
-Give away a house
-See healing recognized in the world wide church as part of the atonement.. a reformation!! hahaha!
I AM NOT GETTING OFF THIS PLANET UNTIL... CANCER and AIDS BECOMES COMPLETELY ERADICATED I just love dreaming with God and staying expectant and looking for what He does and how we can partner with Him and take risks. Living in this place of dreams and having vision in our lives are like a compass directing us where to go. Our dreams (or lack of dreams) literally steer our lives. I CHALLENGE YOU to start dreaming more with God and writing them down and looking out for how He shows up. (these are things I have been thinking about for a few years and a few of my lines were inspired by things Danny Silk has said) <3
I remember sitting on my bed at 11 years old, thinking I would be 100% okay if I never lived to be 20. And I remember a chill went through my bones as I absolutely realized I meant it. All my dreams had died at that point and I didn't any longer felt safe to express myself or how I really felt. I had forfeited my dreams for a mentality of survival, living in a world of low self esteem, extreme depression, horrible circumstances, self hatred, and irrational fears. A LOT has changed since then.. okay EVERYTHING HAS!
I find myself often dreaming and pondering what will the future look like, what can I bring, what do I offer , and HOW CAN I CHANGE THE WORLD!?
The distance between what should be and what will be is us and will we dare to dream? Or will we remain satisfied with what we have? It takes a lot of courage to dream because most dreams currently appear impossible. I really believe that nothing is impossible and that God wants to see impossibilities bow to His name through partnership with us. AND I'M GIVING MY LIFE TO THAT RIGHT THERE.. that's what I want to be known for a woman who loved God with everything and lived in a way that nothing was impossible.. what do you want to be known for?
What would you do if you knew you could not fail? Or you were ten times bolder or resources were not an issue?
THINK.. those are your dreams
Your life is meant to feed and inspire those around you.
When we dream with God it causes a dissatisfaction with a natural life and propels us into a life of purpose.
When your dreams are coming true you are a tree of life, your eyes illuminate hope. The whole world sees it because everyone is hungry to be fulfilled, to be doing what they were born for, to be doing what makes them come alive.
So I keep a list of my dreams I believe I have 170 of them and I add to them and check them off as they happen here are a few that have happened since March..
-Visit the Redwood Forest
-Paint on stage during worship (at Bethel)
-Visit LA and San Frann
-Go to Mexico
-Hug someone and they be healed (she was blind)
-Pray for people and they be healed of cancer
Some dreams of mine I have dreamed that have not happened yet, but will!
-Start a spontaneous dance party in public
-Open air preach in America (demonstrating God's love and power)
- People who are extremely starved bodies get fat and entirely nourished, miraculously
-Visit Cuba
-Travel throughout Africa
-See Africa completely redeemed the ground grow fat crops, family unit restored, creativity, ect.
-That people getting out of wheelchairs would be normal (in my life)
- Adopt beautiful and amazing kids
-That when I shop people would fall out in God's presence and encounter Him just because He lives inside of me.
-Give away a house
-See healing recognized in the world wide church as part of the atonement.. a reformation!! hahaha!
I AM NOT GETTING OFF THIS PLANET UNTIL... CANCER and AIDS BECOMES COMPLETELY ERADICATED I just love dreaming with God and staying expectant and looking for what He does and how we can partner with Him and take risks. Living in this place of dreams and having vision in our lives are like a compass directing us where to go. Our dreams (or lack of dreams) literally steer our lives. I CHALLENGE YOU to start dreaming more with God and writing them down and looking out for how He shows up. (these are things I have been thinking about for a few years and a few of my lines were inspired by things Danny Silk has said) <3
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